Shoe shopping is still somewhat traumatic for me. Being told to "try the mens section" takes me straight back to being 12 years old. Every September my mom and I would start the hunt for shoes for the new school year. Each year was the same, and in the stores I would be shown the selection of slippers (yes, really) and stripper shoes available to me. Inevitably it always ended in tears and the frustration would leave feeling inadequate and freakish.
Although plus size clothing has come a long way, footwear for people over a UK size 8 (US Size 10) is still so far behind. Although I'm grateful to the retailers that have noticed that women are taller and have bigger feet than ever before, I am sick to death of not being able to try shoes on before I buy them, being restricted to online shopping and having to start looking for winter boots in July, just to give me a fighting chance of finding something fashionable I might like in my size.
In some ways I feel completely betrayed. My shoe size has been the same since I was 12 years old and is probably the one thing about myself I cant change. However, when dinner party conversations turn to "if you could change one thing...' my answer is always the same.
I am tired of having shop assisstants do a double take when I ask if they stock my size, I am offended that many go on to try and sneak a look at my feet. I am frustrated that retailers advertise their larger sizes but only stock one pair in each style. Why should I have to plan to be the first and only customer for those shoes? I don't want to try your other store in the next town. I don't want to order them online and wait 10 days for delivery. I just want stylish shoes. For my feet. That fit. And I want them now.
I am not my dress size. I am not my shoe size.
Dress-H&M / Belt-New Look / Shoes-ASOS.
Bitch Face-My own.
Bitch Face-My own.